Too Low For Zero

Music by Elton John
Lyrics by Bernie Taupin

Six o'clock alarm
I get the wake up call
Let that sucker jingle-jangle
Ring right off the wall
I'm too low for zero
I'm too tired to work
Tied one on with a friend last night
And wound up losing my shirt
I'm too low for zero
I'm on a losing streak
I got myself in a bad patch lately
I can't seem to get much sleep
I'm too low for zero
I wind up counting sheep
Nothing seems to make much sense
It's all just Greek to me

You know I'm too low, too low, too low for zero
You know I'm too low, too low, too low for zero

Cutting out cups of coffee
Switching off the late night news
Putting the cat out two hours early
It isn't any use
I'm too low for zero
Insomnia attacks
Watching flies with my eyes till sunrise
It's daylight when I hit the sack


I like this song because it reminds me of a place I've been and go to from time to time, when I feel really low, but I can look at it from here and recognize it from the other side. I'm not there right now, and I know that when I'm there I won't stay there. I like the part about putting the cat out early. I do that with the dogs. I also really like the concept of being too low for zero.

But now it's spring, the other size for me, and things are looking pretty good. I'm about to go "under the knife" as everyone seems to enjoy telling me. I get butterflies in my stomach when I think about it. The last two nights I drank the bottle of wine I had for my book group (which, it turned out, was a good thing they didn't want to drink: it wasn't very good wine). I never, ever drink wine alone at home, but decided I want to have some. So I drank it and it relaxed me. And I fell asleep. Mission accomplished. And I had strange dreams. And I slept through the alarm. And today I'm not feeling a great deal of pressure about work things, but I have about 5 errands to run to get ready to spend a week at home without driving anywhere. I'll never be able to pull it off, I'll have to drive somewhere.